Nov 24, 2020Member-onlyFriends become StrangersSmiles, Holding Hands, & Penises that are not going to fit There’s a spark in your candle that I’ve never really understood, wondered how you could stay so bright and uphold all the darkness that we longed to see be good; you maybe haven’t shared with me how dim it’s…Humor4 min readHumor4 min read
Oct 29, 2020Member-onlyIs this Me?A Prayer of Self-Sadness Oh my Maker: Did You mean to design me so messy, I wonder. I wonder this so many times in so many moments, in almost all of my ever-prolonged, longing-for…something, days. It’s a weirdo week every five minutes or so, when I’m too vibed-out, overly sing-songy…Prayer3 min readPrayer3 min read
May 4, 2020Member-onlyThe Object of My Affection,a Book Review. People who should read this book: those that enjoy good writing but that don’t require unrealistic happy conclusions to enjoy a book or someone who feels a draw to the movie and wants a more developed story. People who should NOT read this book: those looking for…Book Review5 min readBook Review5 min read
Mar 9, 2020Member-onlyWish I Knew How to Stop Loving my Husbandso I could love another man. I wish I knew how to stop loving you, that my curiosity about others lives wasn’t inducing my most real attractions, that it wasn’t more natural for me to linger on your laughs than to just let it go. …Marriage8 min readMarriage8 min read
Feb 19, 2020Member-onlyTo be A Friendof an Anxious Person I want to write you a letter every day. Please, a lot of it, is selfless, wanting to be sure you know (I need to be sure) You’re beautiful great is your smile even the glory of your mistakes. I suppose some of it is … selfish like…Anxiety2 min readAnxiety2 min read
Feb 3, 2020Member-onlyDear Self Image & Self Worth,you’re a tired (but still hidden) topic Dear Body I work so hard to take care of, I drink the water. I run the trails. I avoid processed foods until someone leaves a damn Sour Patch Kids bag laying about carelessly like they want me to go to war with small children or something! However, with the exception of a…Disordered Eating4 min readDisordered Eating4 min read
May 26, 2019Member-onlyI will NeverI will never be used to silent deductions head nods eyes that look down pity smile to not being seen by the one person who used to see me dark and hollow streets to craft store signs Real Love Stories Last Forever I will never understand waking up without him left behind in…Divorce2 min readDivorce2 min read
May 26, 2019Member-onlyFlowers, Feet, & Childrenmissing the woman, might of been.Poetry1 min readPoetry1 min read
May 22, 2019Member-onlyWe don’t tell Trauma Victims to Be Gratefulanymore than we tell them to be easy. I have so much to be grateful for in my life. However, I’m understanding more and more why in the regulations from Child Protective Services (CPS), we specify that it cannot be required that a child be made “to be grateful.” …Gratitude4 min readGratitude4 min read
May 20, 2019Member-onlyNOT Falling in Lovehurts. He invited her for coffee after finding something about her attractive on a dating application. In the seating area of his chosen coffee spot, they met. She thought of all the reasons he can’t be or shouldn’t be. After a whirlwind weekend, without apology, she refused to let him…Dating4 min readDating4 min read
